Feeling low and know that I am depressed but trying to keep myself going. I have known I am in a depressive bout now for about 2 weeks. I have begun to switch off to those I adore and I am leaning on someone I hardly know and know I should not push my negativity on. Why am I doing this? Not sure. I always do. It means I still feel alive and not judged.
Other sure signs of depression - numbness in my head, a slowing of thoughts, weight gain, lack of interest and empathy for those I love. I also know I am dreaming a great deal. I can feel my mind is going to hibernation. I want to talk but cannot really express how I feel. I have no idea how I really feel. That is the problem with depression - you lose the ability to really express yourself.
I will need to take time off work before I get so ill I cannot function. School is sometimes my redemption in the short term. I have, however, learned to accept that I have to stop. Last week I felt hostile to others at work.
I think I should accept the fact that my mind is messy at the moment and needs a rest.
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