Thoughts

1) I am destined to do something very different to what I am doing now
2) I want to feel more alive
3) Loose mind
4) Need to read a book to escape

The sausage of prosperity

of course it had to be sausage

Still unsure of the future

Had alot to think about today. Said goodbye to someone who has been in my life for the past year and found it hard to express myself. Why? My own life is in an odd place - want to change things but unsure how and why. I sense my mum today, not in a truly negative place at the moment but clearly nearby. Who can I talk to? My mum in my dreams

The Notebook and scanning

I have spent today doing two things. Firstly I watched the Notebook. A great gift from Meg for Christmas. I got emotional watching it. Despite not believing in soul mates and love I felt moved. I sat and watched intensely. I felt a sense of joy at the same time. Very odd.

After the film I started scanning stuff for the Cold War scheme of work I am creating. Fucking nightmare. I feel inadequate. I feel a sense of doom. I need to get a grip and appreciate I am able to do such things.

Now watching the Royle Family and again smiling. Bloody silly stuff. Lovely